its really heart breaking when you get to know that one of the precious or loved ones are gone. it really makes my migraine go from bad to worst trying to think about what had just happened. for once, i really appreciate my life very much. we shouldn't take small things for granted. true?
i know everybody in this world has his/hers own mistake. but still after all this things that had happened, i feel that we should not be rough with the people around us. even though if we take it as a joke, we wont know how the person feels when we disturb them or what-so-ever. things happened for a reason.
for me, if you wanna joke around, its okay but to a certain limit. do not go overboard until one day you will regret it. seriously. well, i guess that's the new me. life is so damn short. you will never know if you will wake up the next day. so better repent before its too late. I'm starting to feel a change in me. i don't know why.
is it because a lost of a very best friend? or it is just that feeling that makes you think that its time to change for the better? seriously, even i don't know why.
anyway, today was the third day since you left us. i attended your funeral's praying ceremony. while praying, in my head, i still could not believe that you really left us for good. it just feels like yesterday when i first met you and we became a hell of a friend. i controlled my tears back when i was praying for you my friend. i really do.
your family asked me to come on Sunday for another funeral's praying ceremony. i will just have to get back early from work. i will try my very best to make it on time. i promise.
after the ceremony has ended just now, we went downstairs and slacked till 11:30 or so. took bus home. about 12:15 midnight nazrul called. saying that they are going riding. even though i followed them, there is this strange feeling. feels like something missing. but i just go with the crowd.
we went to eat at jalan kayu. after that, we proceed to yishun dam. about 4 plus we headed back home. and now I'm here and time checked, 6:27 in the morning. damn. must get some sleep.
the absence of your presence is making me feel so damn different.
we still miss you. =)
be strong up there aite.